Is this you?
You want to create something new in your life...
to discover and express a new talent or project...
or to manifest a dream that your heart really really desires....
But everyday is full of duties and distractions...
And the harder you chase the dream the farther away it recedes.
You often feel like a dog chasing its own tail!
STOP!
Take a deep breath and listen!
Can you hear it? The stories running underneath your busy days
Like turbulent rivers flowing in opposite directions!
There are two stories running in your head
Your Dream StoryOne story is your dream, a beautiful vision of your life, your potential unfolding, your gifts being shared in the world, your book finished, your wisdom turned into a program, your home life and environment reflecting the beauty of your soul. (sigh!) This is your Dream, with capital "D" because this is your BIG why, your purpose, your heart's delight. It is a latency of something within you that wants to be expressed. In a good day, when you are wrapped up in this dream, you can touch and taste it. Your heart bursts with joy and gratitude. You feel blissed out and charged up and you absolutely know that this dream is who you are. It is your destination. You have no idea how this will happen. You've never lived this way before. But your heart is absolutely sure that you can do it and that this is its home. So you feel this yearning, this need to go home. And it is frustrating that you are here, not there. |
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But there's another story running.It screams that you are dreaming a fool's fantasy. It repeats over and over that this is not possible, no matter that your role models did it. They can but YOU cannot because... and as evidence it adds a long list of your deficits to prove that the dream is not possible.
And in those bad days... Your dream is busted like a balloon someone stuck with a pin. The rude "Prrrr!" of its deflation is a mocking snort that diminishes your trust, faith and hope. This old story is told in righteous, matter-of-fact hollering voices. Gremlin voices. Familiar shadows with oh, so familiar voices! Voices that in your childhood made you feel small and still do. This old story mocks your affirmations. It tramples on your longing and desire. And it holds you back as potently as iron shackles. |
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You are torn between these storiesThe gap is so wide that it tears you apart. The new story inspires and motivates you. It rises your energy frequency... But the old story drains you. The new story opens the cage of your limitations and invites you to fly high. But the old story slams the door before you escape. Recurring thoughts, doubts and habits stand like bars between you and your dream. In fact, you often feel that you are a prisoner of these old thoughts. The new story gives you ideas, enchants you with possibilities and reveals your hidden potential. The old story shows you "the facts" of your life up to now as evidence that this is a pipe dream, not real or impossible. |
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And how can you argue with its logic?
After all, you don't have the foggiest idea on how to do your dream!
And even if you do... you can't know for sure they will work.
You try to change, to create new habits, to make a plan, to take a few steps in the direction of your Dream...But you bump painfully against the bars of that story cage.
You are stuck!
Why are you stuck?
Why are you not moving forward?
You may push yourself all you want, but the harder you push, the harder the push-back... and the more painful it is when you land on your behind! Ouch!
After too many bruises you may ask:
"Wait a second! Who the heck is pushing back if I want to move forward?"
Here is what I discovered:
That cage of your old story is electrified!
The minute you get close to the limits set by the bars, a shock of old, fearful emotions throws you back... fear of the unknown, fear of failure... fear of success... fear of rejection.... fear of being the fool... fear of losing it all.... fear of finding out the dream is not possible... fear of abandonment... fear of confirming your insufficiency... WHAAAAM! ...that fear gives you an emotional (electromagnetic) shock and you fall back!
Click here to go pass the electrified fence
and find out why you are stuck.
Here's why you're thrown back
Here is why you are thrown back...
The fear-based emotions that shock you were embedded in the old story. It's just like when you remember an accident you had. The memory evokes the emotions you experienced then. Then your body actually goes back to the accident. Your breathing stops, your neck constricts and you fell that old pain.
The moment you reach out for your dream, you get an emotional (electromagnetic) shock, and it is powerful.
It carries the learned emotions from that story and it creates such a strong force field that it affects you emotionally, drains your energy and darkens your mood.
But it gets worse!
Do you ever doubt that your thought or emotions can truly affect your reality? Here's a reverse proof that you can change your reality from within. I say reverse because instead of showing you how your desire, delight and dream nourishment can actually change your circumstances...
... I'm going to show you how that horrible emotional voltage that sent you back to your Comfort Zone... also warps your reality to the extent that it creates problems and obstacles!
This image shows the resonant patterns
of intention, thoughts and emotions
as they emanate from your inner self into the universe.
Click here to find out how these transmissions warp your reality.
You are entering the Warp Zone!
Those powerful emotional charges that you are emanating; they don't just affect you emotionally. They actually affect your environment and your results!
You heard me right. We are used to believing that our psyche cannot affect our "objective" situation. But as a shaman I have witnessed the opposite.
Here are some examples of how your emotions --which are electromagnetic energy waves-- can affect your reality.
Your wounds, fears and unresolved issues are strongly broadcasted and reverberate in the universe, attracting resonant patterns --like Sacred Mirrors these external patterns create circumstances that show in the outside what is happening in your inside.
The resulting situations can become problems, obstacles or crisis.
(Please be gentle with yourself. Not all problems are a result of your transmissions. And those who you may recognize as such are often portals, not punishment.)
See how many or these situations you recognize.
- You are so close to launching you new book. Then technology breaks down.
- You are about to come out of hiding. Then the video you did gets lost.
- You are struggling with invisibility. Then the photos you took are damaged.
- You are almost finished writing that program. Then your computer crashes and you lose your data.
- Your book is almost done. Then the manuscript gets corrupted.
- You are accepted for that new show. Then you get sick.
- You have saved to move to a better place. Then the car breaks down and you need to use that money.
- You've been working hard to network with new organizations. Then the day of the meeting there are major train issues and the people don't show up.
- Stuff happens and you can't go where you needed to move ahead.
- You go blank in front of the blank canvas or page, and can't get one idea going, when minutes before they were flying!
- No one has called in days. But you sit down to start your project, and the phone sounds... and of course you got to take it!
With all these chaos, you are swimming against the current with an undertow pulling you back. No wonder you get confused, distracted or procrastinate endlessly!
Then, months later you suddenly wake up and realize...
"Wait a second! I was working towards my dream! I wanted to manifest XYZ! What happened? Where did I get lost?"
So how do you get to your dream
with all those voices, doubts and forces
pulling you back, distracting you and making you doubt?
You catch the right transportation to your destination!
Click here to discover how to catch
the transportation to your Dream Destination.
When I asked that question...
"How do I catch the right transportation
to my Dream Destination?"
...my Spirit Guides answer with another question:
"What is the difference between 'Here' and 'There'?"
I tried many answers, but nothing worked.
I'll give you a visual clue, see if you get it.
Click here to see if you guessed right.
My Spirit Guides finally laughed and said:
"The difference between 'Here' and 'There' is a "T"
It stands for Transformation."
And that's when it hit me!
I had spend 20 years using art as a vehicle for transformation in workshops for women and families. I had spent the lasts seven years deepening my life skills through my shamanic initiation.
Perhaps (Just perhaps?!) this was an opportunity to put all that good wisdom to use! LOL!
- As a shaman I had been shown the Dream Laws --a set of universal energy principles involved in the flow of change and the architecture of creation. The most popular of these Dream Laws is the Law of Attraction.
- I had also been trained in shamanic secrets, tools and insights to generate change and quicken transformation.
- And I had employed art in many expressions in my own healing and actualization process during my shamanic initiation.
Now I gathered all these resources and used them to discover the transportation to my Dream Destination.
Before I reveal how to catch the transportation to your Dream Destination, I must tell you how NOT to do it because this is where most of us mess up.
Most of us try to catch that transportation
by trying harder, doing more and chasing our Dream.
Is this what your life looks like when you try to
do your Dream while juggling everything else?
Unfortunately this does not work!
Why?
My grandma used to say:
The fever is NOT in the sheets.
You can change the sheets all you want,
but the fever ain't going away!
As humans, we see the world in stories.
stories that we
learn
create
absorb
and then live
OVER & OVER!
Current knowledge on how we file memories reveals
that our brain's default mechanism for filing experience
is in the form of story. Like any good story
these stories include the what, who, where, when, why and how
of the learned experience, now a Story Field filed in our psyche as reference.
When we meet a new situation, we take out that file and apply it...
including any old conclusion or interpretation!
These old stories~like hijackers lurking in the dark corners of your psyche~
apply your old interpretations, fears and limitations to any opportunity
that your dreams and intentions attract into your life...
Your stories travel with you!
You can do new things, buy new stuff and get into new transportation...
but your old story keeps pulling you back into the past
and warping the present... until you change it.
As a storyteller-shaman I have discovered
a way to use story to change your old story
and to make story the map that guides you
to your Dream Destination.
And so it begins...
The first question to change the old story is this:
Am I catching the right transportation
to my Dream Destination?
I discovered that I was in the wrong station
to catch the right transportation.
What about you? Check out here.
Are you waiting in the wrong station?
Are you Riding the "RR"?
Let me tell you what happened to me.
I had a bran new beautiful apartment in the Lower East Side of Manhattan. It even had a terrace! I was a free lance writer and had just graduated from my shamanic apprenticeship --the last part of which took me traveling. I came back from South Africa to find a mysterious infestation in my apartment. No one knew what it was... and eventually I had to leave everything behind to save my dwindling health...Where could I go? I had no money left!
I took refuge with a friend in the Upper East Side. But even as I moved up the East Side, I was hitting my lowest point. One day I was waiting for a friend in the 97th Street station.
Come and join me. Stand with me in a corner washing commuters and you'll see what I discovered that has you traveling farther away from your dream.
| I was watching people push each other into the "RR" train during rush hour in New York.
I asked myself: "They are rushing, but are they heading to their dreams, to a place of happiness and fulfillment?" Their unhappy faces said NO. Having been kicked out of my comfort zone and being too tired to keep pushing and rushing, I began to truly see something about this rush that I had not seen before. I witnessed how these people were rushing in a trance of routine that was somehow plugged into panic. In fact, they were pushing each other and running desperately. Some were going so fast that they got stuck in the turnstile! I realized that they were running to hide in their tiny caves, in the old comfort zone of their habitual living. But also trying to escape a life and work that was so far away from their Dream that it hurt. |
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| And many of them, Dreamers like you and me, were going to that routine destination not realizing that they were trapped in an old story.
In their rush and routine, they were trying to "catch up," to finish their "to-do" list so they could steal a bit of time to make their dream come true. Do you relate? Have you found yourself treating your time as an enemy because you never have time to do the things that make you happy or to move towards your dream? This is the RR train of Rush and Routine. When you are riding it, you spin in the wheels of a time that does not belong to you... and the spinning does not end unless you get off that train! I watched those beautiful souls and saw the light... Until we get off that RR, we will keep meeting endless, overwhelming distractions and pressures at every step! And day by day, month by month, year after year we keep finding ourselves farther away from our Dream. And in our rush to get where we "should" be, we end up at a destination set by others' rules or expectations... and miss our own Dream Destination. Ouch! |
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- But perhaps you are not yet in the RR. You may be waiting in the "Push Station" for the RR to come. Here's where you start judging and berating yourself for not being "There" yet. Stay there and you inevitably catch the RR...
- Or you get so disgusted that you move to the opposite station, the "Daydream Station" where you can catch the "Fantasy Escape" train, so you don't have to face challenge and despair because you just feel good fantasizing about your Dream while you wait for the "right time."
If you realize that you've been standing in the "Push! Station" or riding the "Rush and Routine" train... or the opposite... that you've been passively waiting in the "Daydream Station" or riding the "Fantasy Escape" train... don't fret.
All you need is a change in station or to switch to a different transportation. There are many ways to change your story and catch the right train to your Dream Destination.
Thing is... it's a lot of hard work. And I like to play more than I like to work.... unless it's creative work... unless it awakens my passion and imagination.
So I asked myself:
"How can I change our station
or shift my current "transportation"
while playing and creating instead of struggling ?!"
Click here to follow the Dragonfly Diva and find out!
As I watched these travelers I asked myself:
What if there was a Dream Express? You got into the train and the ride focused your attention, time and energy into a route to your Dream. Each station brought you closer to your Dream and helped you unfold your potential!
Scouting the Dream Route
And so it was that I set myself to scout for that Dream Express.
I gather what I had and set out to to go home to my beautiful Drea
m.
And because I am a writer and a storyteller I began to write a novel that was like a magical diary of my real life journey.
The protagonist was called Angelina, which is what one of my teasing aunts used to call me.
And of course there was Angie, my Sacred Child.
And because I am a shaman, as my Spirit Guides showed me shamanic tools, insights and secrets to go from where I was to where I wanted to be, I embedded them in the story.
I doubled up as both Angelina, ~who was struggling like me~ and Dragonfly Diva, who was guiding her like my Spirit Guides helped me.
Starting with Nothing
My Dream Journey started with nothing.
What was "HERE" for me at that time?
- I had lost almost all my possessions, including clothing, documentation, musical instruments and all my installations for my performances.
- I had not a penny, having spent my little savings trying to get rid of the darn mysterious infestation.
- I was sick with allergies and exhaustion.
- I had lost my beautiful apartment.
- I had lost my computer and many other tools of the trade.
I remembered sitting in a guest room, looking at my hands and crying....
"Why do I find myself with empty hands
after working so hard for so many years?"
How about You?
- What is your "HERE?" What limitation are you bumping against?
- What is your "THERE?" Where do you want to be? What is your dream?
- What is the distance between them?
- How are you measuring that distance?
- Are you ~like I was~ facing a stubborn limitation, a challenging problem or crisis?
Losing most of one's possession, including one's home,
seems unequivocally a disaster, right?
But that crisis suddenly revealed itself as a portal...
Here's a peek at how I did it....
So you know that you can do it too!
Once Upon a Time...
It all starts with the story
Just as your old story was the beginning of the doubts that stole your dream, your new story is the beginning of the transformation that brings it to life.
- The changing of this story can be a frustrating struggle to change stubborn habits that refuse to change and chase your tail trying to find time for your dream...
- or you can choose to PLAY for your transformation, making the process into a magical journey that allows you to drop the baggage and fly light and free into your potential.
Which do you choose?
I chose to change my story by writing myself as a protagonist in a magical quest to rescue of my Dream.
And here's when things get so "META!"
In this process of going
from where I was (next to nothing)
to where I wanted to go
(my Dream of embodying my purpose as a storyteller-shaman)
I wrote a shamanic fantasy novel.
And that novel now becomes your map in your Dream Journey!
Angelina & the Law of Attraction
Shamanic Fantasy
| Angelina holds tightly to her big bag (where she carries her secret)* while she waits for the “N” train that will take her to a new corporate job. Meanwhile, her soul is wilting and summons a magical guide~ the whimsical Dragonfly Lady~ who detours the train. Will Angelina catch the Dream Express into her Dream Destination or will she miss her destiny while she stubbornly sticks to a success track that steals her gifts and cripples her purpose?
* What is Angelina's secret? What is yours? What do you carry with you everywhere, hidden in plain sight? Find out when you read the novel. |
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And now
The Dream Express
opens its doors to you!
If you are tired of doubting, pulling back,
or struggling against a tidal wave of sabotage and procrastination...
If you are living two lives:
One in your heart that craves fulfillment
and one in your mind pushing you to do more
in the old route leading nowhere you want to be....
Then Catch the Dream Express
to go from where you are now to where you want to be.
This is what you can achieve:
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"I AM my dream!"
